Milestones.

Why is it that milestones, any milestone, make you feel older? It doesn't even half to be something big.

When you are young, this is great. Hey!!! I'm older. Yeah!!!

"I just got my driver's license. Yeah!!"

"I just graduated. Yeah!!!"

These and any other milestones made you feel good. You were older, wiser, you were ... More.

Now that I have reached 40, though, they are a little different. Now it's "Damn!!! I'm older. Ouch!"

It doesn't even have to be a big milestone. Take this morning for example. I was fixing breakfast. I put a plate of sausage on the counter, and La Nina walked up and put her chin on the counter to see what I was doing.

This is the first time I had seen her do that, and it stuck me how fast she was growing up. It hit me all of the sudden that she is no longer my little La Nina, but is now almost out of the toddler stage.

For some strange reason, this hit me hard. It made me feel old. Not that 40 is old because it is not, but it made me feel old. Maybe this is what my mid-life crisis feels like. Maybe instead of buying a sports car, and chasing young women, I will watch my daughter grow into a young woman and wish I was younger so I could have more time with her and her mom.

Then again, Maybe I'm just being silly.

Later,

Deej