Feeling Scared.

This has been a rough week. That's partly why I haven't posted. I don't really know how to put the emotions I feel down in text.

We found out this week that BH has to have surgery later this month. She has to have her thyroid removed. The surgeon said there was a 15-20%chance that she may have cancer in it.

She had most of her thyroid removed when she was 14. With that, she has had to take synthroid ever since. Every once in a while, the doctors would adjust her dose down, but would end up adjusting it up after a couple of months.

It appears that most if not all of her thyroid has grown back. The doctor said it looks like she never had it removed. He also said that chances are that she has not been getting enough synthroid for a long time, and that it grew back to help produce whatever it is that the thyroid produces.

The good news is that if it is malignant, it is a very slow growing type. The bad news is that cancer is cancer. And to quote the Funky Winkerbean comic strip, "Cancer doesn't give a shit!!"

They will not know if it is malignant until they go in.

So, here we are scared that she has cancer, worrying about how to pay for the surgery, and there is one other thing.

We found out La Nina may have "Asbergers Syndrome". It is a very mild form of autism. But if she does have it, it will require therapy to help her deal with it.

It is times like this, that all I can do is pray for some kind of answer. I hope if you read this, you will lend me a prayer or two.

Later,

Deej